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Topic: The thoughts are strong

  1. Kitty88
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    17 October 2020
    When is it ok to say you've tried enough? When is it ok to cave in? The thoughts don't ease up lately they just get stronger. I feel so torn on what to do anymore. I'm so worn out but my heart is torn. When is enough, enough? I don't know what to do anymore
  2. Saree_p
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty.

    The road can be very tough... no one can deny that, and that is ok.

    Do you truely think you have had enough or are you looking for other options? I hope the later...

    what is going on for you that may lead you to thinking enough is enough? if you don't mind me asking?

    Saree

  3. Sophie_M
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88
    Hi Kitty88,
      We're so sorry to hear that you're feeling exhausted from fighting unhelpful thoughts. We can hear that you're feeling really low at the moment and we understand that this must be overwhelming. Please know that we are all here to support you.

    We're sorry to hear that you feel your heart is torn. Have you been able to see your mental health supports recently? It sounds like it would be worth checking in with your supports to let them know how you are feeling lately.

    Please remember to reach out when you're feeling overwhelmed and needing to talk it through. You're never alone. In these moments when you're feeling that enough is enough and you need help finding the strength to get through the day, you can get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

    And if you find yourself in a situation where you become an immediate danger to yourself, this is an emergency and you should call 000 (triple zero).

    You might also be interested in taking a look at some of our pages for ideas:
    Many of our members have also been through a lot in their lives and will be able to talk through these feelings with you.  If you would like to post further, please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help support you.
  4. Ggrand
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88

    Hello Kitty,

    Im sorry your struggling so much with your mh...

    I can hear in your words just how exhausted and overwhelmed you feel...

    Please try hard not to give up....Please keep trying...I know your tired and probably think that giving up is easier then the constant fight to stay afloat....

    kitty..honey the contacts our lovely Sophie gave you are really important for you to ring if your to overwhelmed...please try to ring them if you need to...

    I don’t think it’s ever time to cave in, or give up...May I ask you if something happened recently to feel this way?..Its okay if you don’t feel up to sharing..

    Do you have a GP or mental health professionals looking after you?...Depression, anxiety etc is so hard to manage without any help..Is talking to your GP something that you might consider...It took me a while before I reached out for help with my GP...Which I am so pleased I did and I haven’t looked back since then...

    Sitting with you dear Kitty...please talk here anytime you feel up to it..We are here for you..your not alone Kitty..we will try to support you through these hards times you’re going through as much as we can....

    Sending my kindest thoughts with care..

    Grandy..

  5. Kitty88
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Sophie_M
    I'm just done, I've had enough. Nothing ever seems to get better. I'm worn out, I'm done hurting I just want it to stop

    I'm just done at this point. My health is really crap at the moment, eventually it will kill me. My mental health is gotten so bad. I've tried fighting so much but I'm just at a dead ends ive tried so much. I'm sorry but I don't know what else to do
  6. Sophie_M
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88
    Hi Kitty88,

    That sounds really concerning - we're reaching out to you privately to check in.

    We're sorry to hear that you're feeling so worn out tonight. We can hear that you've been fighting really hard and we understand it's really tough. Remember that if you're in immediate danger that you need to call 000 (triple zero) as this is an emergency.

    We're all here to listen if you want to tell us more about what you're going through and how we can support you at the moment.
  7. therising
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88

    The depths of depression is such an incredibly torturous place to find yourself in. It can be hard for people to truly relate unless they've been there. I'm wondering whether you're thinking 'Nothing and no one can make a difference'.

    I'm wondering if you can find the difference here, even if it is small to begin with, even if it is tiny. Besides raising yourself out of depression, what are some of the differences you're looking to make? I'm actually wondering whether a book called 'Becoming Supernatural' by Joe Dispenza will make some difference to you. It's a fascinating book that ties body, mind and spirit or natural self together in the most incredible ways. Another way of viewing this unique triad is - Chemistry or biology, thoughts or beliefs and energy. I imagine your looking to make a difference in all of these areas. Seeing you've reached this point you're at, it is easy to imagine you are feeling so incredibly exhausted, in so many ways. I remember the depths of depression well. It feels like you've just got no energy left for battle. Energy would perhaps be a major factor for you when it comes to feeling a difference.

    I hope you revisit. I hope we can offer that difference you're looking for. Sometimes, simply being encouraged to vent is enough to raise us just that little bit, especially when most people around us have been insisting we keep things to our self. Vent your upset and intolerance if that's what makes some difference. Feel free to be your self. One of the greatest aspects of coming here involves meeting people who deeply care yet do not care to judge.

    :)

  8. TheBigBlue
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty,

    I really hope you can find the strength to hold on a bit longer. I was recently in a similar position, so very, very close to taking an action that would never have been the right decision.

    Dont be critical of yourself. This stuff happens. It’s absolute sh*t but if you can ride it, then ride it out. I f fealty so alone, no one ever reached out to me, so I had to do the reaching out which was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

    I won’t lie, getting through stuff like this is really, really hard. If you want to stay in bed for a week, then stay in bed for a week. Do whatever you need to do to get yourself through.

    if you eventually feel up to it, you could speak to your GP. I was terrified to take that step, but she suggested 3 different psychologists & I had a look I them & asked for a referral for one. It was both the hardest & best thing I have ever done in my life.

    if beyond blue have reached out to you, then you have the option to email or call them. The choice is 100% yours. But as someone who has struggled through the tough times, I found it a huge help for my wellbeing.

    i really, really hope you pull through. I hope things get better. You aren’t alone, we are here to listen & share our stories too.

    Hopefully we shall see more posts from you & know you are still fighting

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  9. Kitty88
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    17 October 2020 in reply to therising
    Thank you for reaching out, I appreciate it but im so exhausted at the moment I just give up.

    Thank.you for trying but at the moment I've really just had enough
  10. TheBigBlue
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    17 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88
    It makes me sad to imagine the pain you are going through 😢
  11. therising
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    18 October 2020 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88

    I've been wondering all morning what to say to you that would make some difference. I thought maybe if I could relate better to where you are, maybe that could be it.

    Just want to let you know that I can understand what depression can do to you over time. Looking back, I believe I was headed into a depression around 16. Came to really feel it around 20. At around 28 or so I hit my lowest point. I can recall sitting there on my own thinking 'I just can't do this anymore'. This life was not what I signed up for. I resigned myself to the idea that it was time to call it a day. It is a deeply deeply heartbreaking moment when this happens. I remember sobbing uncontrollably for hours until I was thoroughly exhausted and took action. It was not long before regret sunk in. It was in this moment where I realised that it's not that I wanted to go, it's just the fact that I couldn't stay (doing this life), if that makes sense. I called a friend who took me to hospital. When I came out, I knew I had to find an anchor to keep me here. I chose my nephew, who would be the most devastated to lose me. I would stay for him. After having 2 kids of my own over time, my 2nd led me to attend PND group therapy, which led to the most mind altering experience I've ever had. At 35, I suddenly found myself out of depression. I've been raising myself ever since. I'm 50 now. It has been a long and somewhat deeply depressing journey to get here.

    The reason I tell you this is because, with all my heart, I want you to stay and come to know your natural self, who you really are, outside of depression. I want you to know all the sensitivities responsible for having got you to where you are. And I want you to come to know the actual up side of being a highly sensitive person. It may sound selfish but I desperately want you to stay.

    Looking back, it is now easy for me to recognise what and who led me into my depression, what and who led me to stay in it for so long. I believe, when we are basically raised and basically loved, basically is sometimes just not enough, especially for those who are sensitive to the need for more than just the basics.

    I believe, possibly the hardest thing to do in this world is raise our self, even under the best of circumstances. Under the worst, it can feel impossible, I know. The very depths, the lowest point of depression is as bad as it gets, where the pain is excruciating. I want you to know there is more than one way out.

    I hope you return here

  12. Kitty88
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    6 February 2021
    For a while now things have been tough, my depression has been bad and just won't seem to get better. My health has been bad as well and my ED has worsened and has been stressing me out alot and causing issues with my health now too, plus so much more. I have reached out to numerous services for help and support but seem to be let down everytime, it really feels like noone wants to help me. And as far as social support my only friend I had left due to a dv relationship stopped talking to me just before Christmas because I was admitted to a mental health facility and my family aren't really supportive either.

    Lately, I just feel fed up with being let down all the time and having to deal with everything on my own. I'm sick of noone caring about me at all and feeling so lonely and depressed all the time, I don't want to be hurting anymore. My head has been wandering a lot with negative thoughts lately, contemplating it all, it's just so hard I feel so torn. I'm just worn out, I need a break but it just never seems to come
  13. therising
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    7 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88

    It's heartbreaking to hear that you're surrounded by people who are not committed enough to raising you. I can relate to how truly horrible this can feel. It can be such a depressing feeling. I think what triggers me the most when this happens can involve the fact that people don't believe they're doing anything wrong. What I mean is they may see nothing wrong with comments such as 'You should just toughen up, you're too sensitive' or 'You need to just get on with life and stop analysing everything'. There can be a whole list of comments which are in fact pretty thoughtless and insensitive. Even simple comments made by people who mean well can have a negative impact, such as 'If you just smile more often, you'll be happier'. The amount of times I heard this during my years in depression is countless. How we absorb all the little comments can have a significant impact on us.

    For me, managing to stay out of depression involves a lot of strategy. One of the many ways I manage is through observing others. With the temptation at times to ask or state 'What's wrong with me?!', I try to remain conscious of the need to ask the question 'What's wrong with that person? How and why are they leading me to feel down?' Family members are good to test this on, as they're often the people we're around the most (opportunity for greater observation). Who's the family member that triggers you the most, in the way of mental health? Chances are you have the opposite nature to them. Example

    • You are thoughtful or analytical/they are thoughtless
    • You are sensitive/they are insensitive
    • You are more natural/they are somewhat materialistic
    • You are more so an inspiring person at times (raising people)/they are more so a judgemental or critical person (bringing or putting people down)

    So, in summary, you can be a thoughtful, sensitive (important trait if you want to feel your way through life), natural and inspiring person. That family member can be thoughtless, insensitive, unnatural and degrading.

    I feel, one of the greatest challenges in life involves managing people. How are you managing the people around you? Are you up for the challenge of managing them? I warn you, when you begin managing people, it does tend to trigger them, to either anger or greater consciousness. When others are not accountable for their words and actions or inaction, it is often us who can feel the pain. If we're sensitive to the faults in others, we can feel the impact of these faults.

    :)

  14. Missing user
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    7 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88, I know you posted this a few years ago but it came up in new threads, so I thought I'd pop in and say hi.

    Are you ok, are you safe?

  15. Kitty88
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    7 February 2021 in reply to Missing user
    Hi, the original post was made last year but I commented on it again last night which is probably why it's popped back up again.

    Things have been really hard still, I swear I can just never catch a break. I have been trying so hard to fight and get help, get support, to just get out of this rut but it's like no matter what I do I seem to remain here and continuing to do it on my own. It's lonely, very lonely and the last few weeks alone have been very challenging with alot of health issues, some that were quite scary and having noone there to even talk to about it has been hard and makes me wonder why I bother. Everything is just so complicated and I don't know what do
  16. Sophie_M
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    7 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Dear Kitty88, 

    We are so sorry to hear how difficult things are for you at the moment and how lonely you are feeling. We are glad that you have taken the time to share how you are feeling with our community. We want to let you know that you have come to a safe, non-judgemental space and that our community are here to offer you as much support and conversation as you need. Please feel free to post here when you are feeling lonely. 

    If you feel it may be helpful, we recommend reaching out to our support service who are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat from 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. It might be helpful to join a support group to try and build a social network in your area.​​​ You can also find information on support groups is available on the Black Dog Institute site here - https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/resources-support/support-groups/

    In overwhelming moments, services like Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) may be of use. 

    Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it. 
  17. Sophie_M
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    7 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Dear Kitty88, 

    We are so sorry to hear how difficult things are for you at the moment and how lonely you are feeling. We are glad that you have taken the time to share how you are feeling with our community. We want to let you know that you have come to a safe, non-judgemental space and that our community are here to offer you as much support and conversation as you need. Please feel free to post here when you are feeling lonely. 

    If you feel it may be helpful, we recommend reaching out to our support service who are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat from 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. It might be helpful to join a support group to try and build a social network in your area.​​​ You can also find information on support groups is available on the Black Dog Institute site here - https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/resources-support/support-groups/

    In overwhelming moments, services like Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) may be of use. 

    Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it. 
  18. Kitty88
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    27 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Far out, I've had enough it just never ends, I'm so worn out. I'm over being physically sick and in pain all the time, I'm over being depressed everyday, I'm over being let down repeatedly, I'm over the loneliness and the feeling of not having a purpose in this world, that I'm basically just existing for the benefit of others now. I have tried hard but I am tired, I don't know how much longer I can endure this for...
  19. Sophie_M
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    27 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Dear Kitty88, 

    We are so sorry to hear how physically sick, worn out, let-down, lonely and depressed you are feeling. It sounds like everything has been really tough for a while now, and you're feeling quite over it all and don't know where you're place or purpose in the world lies right now. I imagine all of those thoughts and feelings would be really challenging and incredibly overwhelming to deal with. We're glad you've reached out to us to express yourself, and we hope that doing so has at least helped you feel slightly better. Please know that you are not alone and that we are here for you. 

    If at any time, these thoughts and feelings become too overwhelming for you, please remember that there is help out there:
    • Our friends at Lifeline are also available anytime on 13 11 14 or you can visit https://www.lifeline.org.au/Get-Help/Online-Services/crisis-chat for online chat.
    •  Suicide Call Back Service are also available 24/7 on 1300 659 467 or you can visit their website for online chat: https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/phone-and-online-counselling/.
    • If things are seeming too overwhelming and you’re at unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency and you need to call 000 (triple zero).
    Please continue to share how you're feeling with our community when you feel up to it. 
  20. therising
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    28 February 2021 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88

    It's an absolutely torturous feeling, to reach complete and utter intolerance. Others can be so cruel in the way they lead us to feel this on such an incredibly deep level. It can make you want to slap people and scream at them 'WAKE UP! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THIS IS DOING TO ME?!!!!!'

    May sound a little simple minded but I believe our purpose in life is to come to know our self better. From my experience, this cannot be done 'inside the square', so to speak. Inside the square can be depressing and soul destroying a lot of the time, filled with mental and social conditioning. Inside the square is where conventional medicine is these days, where people vibe at some basic level and where the world looks hopeless and uncaring. Tolerating things inside the square can be heartbreaking. Gradually dying of a broken heart is such an extraordinarily painful experience.

    So, what does outside the square look like? Have you ever considered venturing there? When I say 'Outside the square', what comes to mind for you in the way of greater mental, physical and natural well being? Doesn't matter how 'out there' it sounds by the way.

    :)

  21. Kitty88
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    30 April 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Farout it never gets any easier. I got out of hospital 3 weeks ago for psychotic depression and now today I find out I'm losing my baby. I am devastated, this baby gave me something to keep fighting for and now it's all been ripped away again. I done everything I could and it still wasn't enough. I am seriously cursed and don't belong in this world. My heart is hurting, I am exhausted.. when is enough, enough? When is it ok to draw the line? I am empty
  22. Sophie_M
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    30 April 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Hi Kitty88, 

    Welcome back to the forums and to this warm and friendly community. We are so sorry to hear that you are feeling to exhausted and devestated at the moment. It sounds like you are going through an incredibly difficult situation. We want to thank you for being so brave and for sharing how you are feeling with us. It is such a courageous thing to do and we hope you can find some support here. 

    We think that it would be useful for you to reach out to our phoneline as well so that you can talk about how you are feeling. You can always call Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636 or you can call our friends at Lifeline on 13 11 14. They can help with strategies for now as well as where to get further support. 

    If you prefer you can also try the webchat service here:
    https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    It is really important to remember that if you do not feel safe that this is an emergency and that you should call 000. 

    Please feel free to update the forums on how you are going if you feel comfortable doing so. 

    Kind regards, 
    Sophie M
  23. Kitty88
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    30 April 2021 in reply to Sophie_M
    I'm just beyond breaking point, I don't know what to do anymore, I give up this life just never gets any easier.. I don't know what to do
  24. Sophie_M
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    30 April 2021 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88,

    We are so sorry that you are feeling this low. It sounds like this is incredibly difficult for you to manage at the moment. We think that it would be great for you to reach out to the Beyond Blue team by calling 1300 22 4636. It could also be great to give Lifeline a call on 13 11 14.

    We will also be getting in touch with you to make sure that you are ok as we can hear that you are in distress.

    We hope that you can continue to reach out for support here. You are always welcome and we want to continue to support you.

    Kind regards,

    Sophie M

  25. Kitty88
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    Thanks, things are just really hard I feel like I'm losing my mind. I caved to some of the thoughts I just wanted an escape, even if it was just for a moment, I wanted the pain to ease. Now I just feel like a failure! I don't know what I need anymore, I need a break, I need help, I need the pain to stop, I need something I just don't know what what it is I need or want anymore
  26. Sophie_M
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    1 May 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Hey Kitty,

    Thanks for posting tonight,

    We're sorry to hear how overwhelmed you feel at the moment. Please know you're not a failure but under a lot of emotional strain and this is a lot to handle. We hope our community can offer their kind words tonight and help brainstorm some ideas on what you can do to manage these painful emotions.

    Have you heard of safety planning before? A safety plan can help in moments when you're feeling really overwhelmed and are having thoughts of self-harm or suicide. It puts all your coping tools in a series of steps:   
    • Recognising your warning signs
    • Making your surroundings safe
    • Reminders of reasons to live
    • Things that can make you feel strong
    • People and places to connect with
    • Family and friends you can talk or yarn with
    • Professional support

    You can learn more about safety planning and how to create one here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning

    We'd like to let you know that our Support Service is trying to reach out to you via email as we are worried about you.

    We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

    Please check in and let us know how you are whenever you feel up to it.

  27. Ggrand
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    1 May 2021 in reply to Kitty88

    Hello Dear Kitty..

    I’m so sorry your finding things really hard right now..

    Those unhealthy thoughts Kitty are really hard to ignore sometimes..About the only way to stop them when they overwhelm you..is to try everything you can to distract yourself from thinking on them..and it’s very important that you try to...

    Put on a song that you like and sing along with it...listen to an audio story...sleep stories are calming..but you must try as hard as you can to concentrate on the words been spoken....

    Sophie has given you some great coping ideas to try...Please don’t hesitate to call the Beyond Blue 24/7 professional counsellors....They are there to help talk you through what’s happening to you....I have rung them and they are kind, caring and very understanding....They can help you..

    No lovely Kitty, your not a failure at all...your a survivor...trying your best to manage your mental health...Can I ask you if you have talked to your Dr. about the way your feeling?....

    I hope tonight gets a little easier for you..maybe Kitty...lay down and listen very deeply to some soft music, meditation or a sleep story,..and try to put your thoughts into those...

    Here for you lovely Kitty..holding on to your hand with my care...

    Grandy...

  28. therising
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    2 May 2021 in reply to Kitty88

    Hi Kitty88

    'I don't know what I need anymore'. It sounds like you do know...

    'I need a break' from thinking or constantly mentally processing things 24/7

    'I need help', when it comes to making sense of my thoughts and learning how to stop mentally processing 24/7, as it's thoroughly exhausting, overwhelming and mind, body and spirit altering (bringing my spirits down).

    You need the pain to stop. Whether it's mental or physical, this is true. Life is not meant to be lived in a constant state of pain. The mind stays in a state of pain for a reason, as does the body. If no one is leading us to discover reasons, how can we hope to address these reasons and stop the pain? Has anyone led you to fully understand the reasons for all the pain, mental and physical?

    'I need something I just don't know what what it is I need or want anymore'. Are your needs and wants the same now as they were at the start of your mental and physical challenges? Depressing unhelpful people can lead us to lose sight of our deep soulful needs and wants.

    I'll touch on something you mentioned at the start of your last post. You feel like you're losing your mind. This may sound insane but I've gained much from losing my mind on occasion, my thinking mind. This is where meditation comes into play.

    • If you've ever caught yourself daydreaming, this is naturally meditating on nothing (the skill of not thinking)
    • If you can imagine eating something you love, that brings you joy, imagine seriously tasting it for the 1st time, becoming so involved in nothing but the taste. Close your eyes. How does it feel, to deeply meditate on the taste for the 1st time?
    • How does it feel to meditate on a high energy song where you've ramped up the volume to the point where you can almost feel your neighbours' agitation? Would it make you feel like screaming? Would it lead you to feel angry or would you feel like dancing like a maniac? How would you vent through that song? How would you feel through the energy of that song?
    • Is there something you love the touch of, where you find yourself meditating on the feel of that thing? If you don't have something like this, buy it
    • Gift yourself a perfume you feel a difference through. Pick one based on how it leads you to feel (peace/calm, soulful, love etc) and meditate on it when you wear it. Aromatherapy meditation

    Practice losing your mind, connecting to your senses. Beware, the thinking mind will always want to come back to thinking. It's a bugger to master.

    :)

  29. Kitty88
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    2 May 2021 in reply to Sophie_M

    I tried to distract, I tried to get professional help, I even tried seeing the Gp yesterday because I was desperate but they just don't seem to understand.

    I can't catch a break no matter what I do. My head is a horrible place and the voices just keep getting louder, I can't escape them here. I'm seriously losing my mind

  30. Sophie_M
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    2 May 2021 in reply to Kitty88
    Hey Kitty88,

    We can hear how much pain you must be feeling right now, and it's so brave of you to keep reaching out despite how difficult it is. You've shown so much strength in seeing your GP yesterday, and we are so sorry to hear that they don't seem to understand. We want you to know what a valued community member you are, and being so proactive in finding support for yourself during this time is so important. We want you to know that we are here for you, and you're not alone in this, and we are currently reaching out to you privately as we are worried about you.

    We'd also really encourage you to reach out to our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) and Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) during overwhelming moments like these, as the understanding counsellors are here to help support you through this. 

    However, if you find yourself in a situation where you become an immediate danger to yourself, this is an emergency and it's really importantg that you call 000 straightaway.

    We think that you're so strong and resilient Kitty88, and please know that we are all here for you.

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