Dear Trapped veteran~
I feel greatly for you, not only for the illnesses caused by your service, but also the fact the the things you need to recover -safety - peace -tranquility and support have all been taken away by neighbors, the police and the law.
I can only look to my own experience, invalided out suicidal with PTSD, depression and anxiety, ironically from the police (no, not the Qld ones). There are two worlds, the one outside you, in which all those factors, neighbours etc are present, and the world inside you which as to try to cope with them.
Reading all the above, you have probably been given most of what we have to suggest in terms of resources for the world outside you, and I doubt many would be news to you. Been there and done that, then having it suggested as a new idea can make one feel more helpless than usual, and more isolated.
The other is inside you. That one is difficult to control and often - I found - dumped me back in scenes, feelings and events without my expecting it or even knowing why. However the word is difficult, not impossible. Gradually over time -with decent psychiatric help - I became better. I'm not 'fixed' but recovered to the extent my life is not one I want to give up, and my coping skills vastly improved.
One thing that made a big difference. I was hospitalized and a kind nurse went to his home, got some books and came back. He was not even one of the ones that was supposed to look after me, but noticed my hard time and acted -though kindness.
They were adolescent fantasy and although my concentration was terrible I managed to loose myself in a world of princes and princesses who married and lived happily ever after, and villains who got their just deserts.
I still read today, although I read books intended for adults I still insist on a happy ending.
What am I trying to say? Your therapists were right in gardening and music being therapy, however if these place you in harms way what else have you got in your inventory to take your mind out of the stress, upset and danger for a while each day?
May I ask if your husband is a able to support you at all, or some other relative or freind, even if far away? They do not have to 'fix' anything, just listen.
You are welcome here anytime