G'day everyone - party hard and welcome to this thread, I hope you find something useful here, or share something useful too.
11.52 am 9/7/2021, I am safe, I've got shelter, warmth, food and water, friends and family and good dogs!
But really I am not safe because if centrelink is ever to cut my benefits, I would rapidly become broke, unable to pay for food/water/shelter or medical expenses. So every time centrelink sends out one of their letters about request for information and informs me of consequences under social policy acts, they inadvertently threaten my very survival. So I snap to, and do exactly what they say I must do. I am centrelinks' slave to their paperwork. They think they're helping but really every communication from them to me is painful. I need their money, not their BS.
So every once in a while, for whatever reason I find I am nearly unable to cope and I've got to stand up and say "I can't do this any more" and in my experience, the only language that centrelink understands and acts upon is expressions about ideation of suicide. And, nope I don't set about to make up my feelings regarding suicide, I seek to more clearly define them and share them with complete utter strangers who have no idea.
Now I'll give advice to beyondblue. Every time bb send me a do-not-reply email, I absolutely hate that! Stop it! Feel free to contact me, but stop sending me do not reply emails. That's what centrelink does, it demands things, threatens things and says "do not reply"!
Do not reply is the poorest of communications. It is a power imbalance, do not reply intensifies isolation. Do not reply makes me feel violent! Damn that feeling. Damn that language.
I remain safe, my wife is next to me, she's safe too.
beyondblue is a good place, pretty much the only forum where I feel comfortable sharing these things online. Thanks for listening.
So I ask others:
What power or benefit can you gain from these unpleasant thoughts? This is a question about surviving and really needs consideration.