What is the point of being here, of existing? I don't know what to do anymore, I have been in therapy for over a year now and feel like I am going around in circles. I struggle to stay on track with anything for longer than a few weeks. You have to want to get better but how do you want it? Nothing matters and I feel like I'm just hanging around until I die. I haven't had anything bad happen to me to warrant feeling this way, it just is. I have no hope for anything, I can't keep my house or car clean, I don't eat regularly or well, I can't even look after my cats well. why can't i just do these things?