Well, I am back, and unfortunately, my husband seems to believe that his anxiety is too high, and he should move out again. However, this has come out ou to the blue today. My daughter found some dating apps on his phone, and he told me he was planning on leaving after my eldest finished her HSC. He was contacted by a woman he met on a dating app years ago and chatting online. He seems to think it's not cheating, but I feel it is, and I have said I would move out because I think he needs to have the time with his daughters, and I need to go and, this time, look after myself. I am exhausted, sad, but surprisingly calm? We are in Sydney, and the lockdown has been challenging; however, he does not express his anxiety. He has not seen his psychiatrist for over six months, and he was doing so well, but it feels he has given up. Our relationship, I thought, had been fine. WE do not have sex, which is mainly something we have just slipped into due to his lack of desire and my going through menopause and probably giving up as the rejection hurts so much.
I cannot move out till after lockdown, and the thought of having to separate again is so sad, but I know this would be it. I just cannot come back. I have asked him to see his psychiatrist and see our marriage counsellor set him up emotionally to deal with our daughters. Financially it makes more sense to me to move in with family than for him to rent another place.
He said the woman he speaks to was going through marriage problems, so they bonded over that, but he has never actually met her? I find this strange, but apparently, she is now separated.
He said he had been very stressed with our daughter, arguing that I am the disciplinarian in this family?
I am so tired