I need to take a session of ECT in order to fix my sleeping problem. It's the only solution I can think of. I have been referred to a sleep specialist, she says that a psychiatrist will be the one to recommend ECT. I'm afraid that they will just dismiss the request. It is well-known that ECT is only used as last resort aid for treatment-resistant depression, etc. My case is different, so I am really hoping they would understand; I mean, I have heard of patients being pulled out to try new treatments under pioneer studies.
Well, I have been prescribed several medications; have tried chamomile, lavender, lemon balm, sleep restriction. None produced an effect.
All in all, I'm curious to how ECT will affect me.
I slept with a temporary thought and now had been stuck on it for 3 weeks, 24/7. One evening, I tried to incorporate this temporary thought into sleep; for awhile, I lost myself to doing just that. I then noticed myself resting, and realized my brain was now actively incorporating the temporary thought on its own. This awareness would take over my everyday brain activity, even sleep. I now only half-sleep, in 90-minute fragments. What I did and am experiencing now may be similar to daytime parahypnagogia. I currently don't know how to undo all of this. Just to add, this temporary thought alters perception, that's why I'm sure I'm under it, non-stop.
I thought ECT because my case resembles that of a woman who had severe paradoxical insomnia no meds could fix until ECT, or the case of a woman uncomfortable with her altered self she got from a meditation retreat. After being on so many prescriptions, she had to undergo ECT.
I don't really know how ECT works but I have a dulled default mode network that is now hijacked and altered by this persisting temporary thought, and somehow ECT can delete these alterations if it can.