I'm glad that posting here has given you some positives to take away and try, that's awesome!
My thinking is that once you have a Counsellor that you have established some measure of trust in AND you feel safe with, then and only then would you be able to talk more openly about your fears. Just to help you, Counsellors and Psychs have probably heard IT ALL. They are seldom shocked, I've known many who are waiting...waiting... waiting for us to open up fully and THEN they can help us more effectively once we acknowledge 'the thing'; whatever that thing is. It's not their job to think little of us or more of us, we are simply their client or patient end of.
I will call you sensitive, I'm sensitive too as are so many people on these forums.
The world needs more of us.
Being sensitive is a HUGE positive, if we were all a$$holes then could you possibly even imagine the state of the world?
It's hard enough.
So I say to my Counsellor and psych "I know I'm sensitive but this stuff is ....."
My friends and family LOVE that I'm sensitive. They are too.
The wisdom comes in knowing WHEN to be sensitive and when to not give a darn. What really helps me and I do this with my children too, I draw concentric circles on a page and in the inner circle are ALL things I have some influence over.. next circle out are all the things I have no control over.
When we focus fully on the inner circle, then watch.... more of the other things move into the inner circle.
This exercise and many others are from Stephen Covey in his "7 habits of highly effective people".
I digress lol. Maybe you have more than anxiety IDK but working on your depression is important.
Another BB member told me about Kristen Neff and I've probably watched ALL her YouTube talks lol. I;ve also ordered her Self-compassion Workbook.
But this alone would not help me leave the triggers in the past. If you read some of the PTSD threads here, you may see yourself reflected in these posts IDK, you will see many people trying different therapies.