Welcome to the forums, Amnesia
We are so grateful that you have reached out here today, as we know it can be tough to do this for the first time. We are so sorry to hear how difficult your journey has been in trying to find a medication that works best for you. But please know that you're not alone here, and this non-judgemental, supportive community is here to offer you as much advice and conversation as you need.
Can we ask if you have discussed these feelings with your GP or mental health professional? You are also more than welcome to talk through these feelings or concerns with our lovely counsellors at the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available anytime on 1300 22 4636 or you can get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
Many in our community have been through similar experiences and will be able to talk through these feelings with you. If you would like to post further, please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best support you through this.