After struggling a long time I went and saw my GP for help. They have started me on SSRI's for anxiety and depression and gave me a referral to see a psychologist. Many I that were suggested to me were not accepting new patients and I couldn't find a whole lot of information/reviews about many of them, but either way I was turned away by many of the more reputable places. In the end I found a lady and had the initial consult. It went alright. We touched on some things but didn't really probe deeper, she gave me some CBT advice and booked the next session.
I wasn't sure what to expect. We didn't really click so to speak but I thought I'd give it another go. This last session, I felt like I wasn't really understood. I feel overly emotional, tearing up at farewells for people I don't know when their boss says a few generic nice words, she says she thinks it's actually sweet and asked why I think it's a problem. I tried to explain that I couldn't find the source of the emotion and it was kinda embarrassing to cry at work or in public for things that even people who are related to the events aren't sad about. I mentioned that often when things are happy I cry and feel sad, no happy tears. After some discussion she sort of state I could just drug myself to not have feelings if that's what I really wanted, otherwise being sad is just something I would have to learn to cope with and eventually this phase will pass.
I feel like she didn't understand what I want to achieve, but I'm not sure if I'm just reacting to being told that I'm probably going to cry sadly about things uncontrollably and it's significantly bothers me, or if I really was misunderstood and maybe I should find help elsewhere?
She's a lovely person, but I don't know if she really gets me, and as I am I don't know how to even approach the question or say maybe she's not for me and let her know that? What if she feels bad? I don't want to make her feel like she's doing a bad job if she isn't...