Hello Noodles,
A very warm welcome to the forums...
Im sorry your husband is across the other side of the world and you’re struggling a lot with your mental health...
Please Noodles don’t feel selfish because your not..everyone’s struggles are just as important as each other’s..
I can resonate about waking up and not having anything to do..It’s so hard isn’t it?
I live alone and most mornings I find it hard to get up, because of nothing to do..and that continued to drag me deeper into depression..
I have managed to make myself a morning routine.ie: get up same times daily..make my bed before I leave the bedroom, then health hygiene, then my cuppa and breakfast.wash up then I feel at least I’ve managed to do something...
I look for things to keep busy..sitting outside is my daily mindfulness for around an hour... Is their something that you are interested in to learn...ie: crotchet, knitting, craft, drawing..Their are lots of free lesson on learning new things..Right now I’m thinking of painting some furniture..just for something to do, plus it will be a different look....Keeping your mind busy dear Noodles helps..and if we learn something new..we feel proud of our achievements...
Corona has caused so much disruption to so many peoples lives..I hope it ends soon....
Our lovely Sophie has given you some links to some great reading which I found very valuable for me and my mental health...I hope you feel up to following those links..
Please dear Noodles..be gentle on you and care for you the best you can..
Sending you my kindest thoughts with care..
Grandy..