UMMBICKIE,
Thank you so much for posting. What you're saying really speaks to me - I feel like I've lost myself in recent years too, losing my motivation for things that I was once insanely passionate about. And falling into old patterns when you're low, I know exactly what you mean.
It's great to see that you're being proactive in terms of reaching out, what a great start! Acknowledgement and awareness of your feelings is always a fantastic feat.
Quirkywords is right, keeping a journal is a great technique for grounding yourself and understanding your feelings more. Self-reflection through meditation is another technique that I've found helps me too. Opening up a conversation with close friends/family or your partner can also be therapeutic, and you may even find that some people close to you can relate to your experiences or can offer you some tips of their own.
If you find that the professional help you've received isn't the best, you could always change to a different professional. Every psychologist, therapist, counsellor, GP etc. conducts their practice slightly differently, so it may even be useful to try a few people before deciding on somebody who can offer you the best quality of service to meet your specific needs.
I hope this helps you out a little, please feel free to chat some more if you'd like!
All the best, SB