I'd like to comment on a few things-
But today, I am jobless, there are not enough work in my speciality field because technology has moved on, in despair over my situation and isolated from families. Any job will boost your self esteem and fix money issues. Your job was your comfort zone, best to accept that we need to get diverse to survive. Many tradies end up working in the mines etc. A shift in thought patterns is the key here. Easier said than done but worth considering.
I have never felt a part of society. I am afraid of making friends who may take advantage of me. Yet, I craved for company. please read the first posts of https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/relationship-and-family-issues/fortress-of-survival and https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/fortress-of-survival-part-2
I experienced panic attacks and cry everyday not knowing if I will get through the day alive. https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/anxiety/anxiety-how-l-eliminated-it
I am in debt, I have no money for medication. No future. The worst case scenario is bankruptcy. Not a big deal nor uncommon nowadays. You wouldn't be alone in that. In fact there are around 27,000 per year.
I am sinking into homelessness as my savings run out and I need to totally depending on Newstart. Many do. Focus on what you have not what you no longer have. Consider alternative accomodation like a caravan in someones backyard etc Google Maharaji youtube sunset and youtube maharaji the perfect instrument (he has many more to listen to.
I woke up this cold morning and there was this deep deep sadness inside me as I scanned though a past life when I felt safe and happy. Nothing is guaranteed in life. https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/seesaw-of-acceptance
I joined this forum to keep me alive. Great. I'm here. So are others. Let's talk. Any subject. Would that help? Simply type. And your comments on the links if you feel like you want to. I'm here usually daily.