Hello Letzi, & welcome to the forum.
Isn't it annoying to have these past experiences continue to intrude into our lives like this, after so many years? (That's a rhetorical question; I know exactly how annoying it can be),
I am not using any meds, but I still see my Psychiatrist, as he is there for so much more than offerings medications. Indeed , my current Psychiatrist was the one who helped me stop taking tem, if only to determine whether my sense that they were not doing anything for my depression, & discovered there was no impact on my depression without the medication.
I guess, for some of us, it is the hard work we must do, usually daily, supporting ourselves. There are all sorts of ideas on this website alone, which you might find helpful. I can't advise very much else as I haven't gone down the road of looking for support groups. I'm sure they are out there, though. Suppose we do a little research?
I'll get back to you.
In the meantime, there are also resources here for how to support yourself. & you can certainly continue talking here as well. I have recognised that talking here has helped me feel less alone.
P.S. What is in your avatar? I ask because my eyesight is very poor, but from what I see, it looks like it might be cute...? Or I am just hoping it is.