Hi and welcome to the forums.
Sorry to hear you lost your job after all those years of service. It is sad to hear that when you mentioned this you lost your job. It sounded a "too hard basket". I also want to mention how brave it is to post and tell a little of your story.
In your post you said...
have been trying to get a diagnosis but can’t get help. I’ve been to so many dr, psychologist, psychiatrist etc. no one is diagnosing me with anything but they keep telling me I have a bunch of things and offering me anti depressants.
Can I ask what sort of diagnosis you are looking for? Or what did they tell you?
Here is my story (or part thereof) ... My psychologist said that I have depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Outside of that I have I ticked all the boxes on the cognitive distortions check list. I can get overwhelmed by too may things to deal with at once. When somethings goes wrong I can blame myself and call my a failure etc. A couple of other people in my family have spoken with psychologists ... one was GAD and other was "sensory overload". I have wished for a diagnosis that I could put it all down to but that does not work for me. So I have a bits of lots of things all of which give me a negative outlook on life. It is what it is!
My last comment is, and I don't know how long were with each psych*, but for me, this is a long journey. Like a marathon vs a 100m sprint.
If you want to talk more about what is going on for you, please write back. The people here are very supportive and non-judgemental.