Hey Stannie, welcome to our friendly online community, we are so glad you decided to join us here. We are sorry to hear of your struggle, it sounds like things have been tough on top of the challenging medical conditions you experience. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need. We're sure that a lot of our community members will relate to these feelings and hopefully some of them will pop by to offer you words of wisdom and kindness.
Please stay in touch.