First time posting on here so I am not sure if this is the most appropriate forum to put it on but here goes nothing.
I, as like many of you, have been living with depression and anxiety for a long time now.
One of the recurring feelings that has become more and more prominent I have had over the last two years is what seems like to me, the unshakable feeling of isolation and loneliness, and it is a sick feeling to have that I am feeling nauseous typing this out.
During this time, I have made a conscious effort to be more open about my mental health with family and friends that I feel like I am close to and I can trust, to which I have had a mixed bag of reactions; half of them received it well, but don't really make an effort to check in to see how I am going afterwards (one even forgetting I told them after only one month), and the rest, did not receive it well at all (notably my Mum, who just gave me the simple "snap out of response" which as I am sure you can all understand, not as easy as it sounds).
It appears to me that being open and vulnerable like that just makes me feel more lonely and isolated than before.
I want to be able to have a more deeper and meaningful relationships and steer away from superficial ones with my friends and family, but what is leading me feel like I am all alone is the fact I don't want to burden them with my problems, as well as believing that they probably weren't the best people to be open to about my mental health to begin with.
I actively try to maintain these connections but as of late I cannot help but feel like that since revealing the status of my mental health to them, they have been distancing themselves away further adding more fuel to the "I don't want to a burden" fire. It is so tiring!
One thing that I have been doing a lot recently is shifting the spotlight to any drama or problems they are having and offering my support and advice that way.
However, I can definitely sympathise with the possibility that they just aren't sure how they could be of help to me either, and are nervous about saying or doing the wrong thing, which creates a bit of a Catch 22 in a way.
Question is, well, it is a two part question:
1) If anyone else can relate, how do you cope?
2) How to break through the Catch 22?
If you need me to elaborate please ask. I am already on 307 characters left in this post and don't want to make it anymore longer if I can.
Looking forward to chatting with you all! :)