You're an absolute star (truly brilliant) in regard to how you've managed the overwhelming challenges that have come your way over time. It can be incredibly hard and potentially depressing, managing certain challenges, especially those that are new to us.
I believe, when we're highly sensitive, we are sensitive to the potential for every challenge to either raise us or bring us down. I escaped my depression more than 15 years ago and have managed not going back in, in a variety of ways, yet some challenges have had me on the brink (with a sense of fear and hopelessness). I knew lock down (round 2) here in Melbourne would seriously test me. I manage myself through excitement, creating breaks from those I live with, managing the household finances based on a predictable income (now all over the place), managing to add ventures to my life (adventuring) and the list goes on. This lock down has challenged the way I manage to stay out of a depression. It's definitely tested us all in thinking outside the square.
I can relate to the overwhelming challenges that can come with miscarriage and life after becoming a mum. They're mind altering life changing challenges that no one fully understands unless they've experienced the stress and sadness that can come with them. Part of that stress involves the pressure to perform 'normally'. Hard to do while you're experiencing these challenges through:
Mind: The thoughts that come to mind in relation to feeling like 'a failure' and as feeling worth less than what you were before are deeply taxing. The thoughts that have you feeling like you just can't raise yourself, no matter how hard you try, can mess with your identity - I am hopeless (without hope)
Body: The biology/chemistry that comes with depression is deeply impacting, enough to change our perception and our energy levels
Spirit: When raising our spirits feels like an impossible full time job, we can be left feeling spiritually exhausted (we just can't feel life or connect to it)
Yes, I'm a mind/body/spirit gal, fascinated by the way all 3 aspects of self interact. If 1 is off, it can potentially impact the other 2 in a variety of ways. I believe meds can be an effective way to shift our chemistry - impacting perception, function and natural energy or sense of connection to life. Rising through challenges without meds often entails a complex structure of management strategies. What helps us best manage will depend on a number of factors in play.