Hi leets, welcome,
It isn't so abnormal to get things out of perspective. You need to focus on what thoughts are realistic and discount those ones that aren't. To do this, as I did in 1987 onwards, I needed therapy and some medication.
Don't feel bad about this, be logical.You need assistance.
Read up here on others that have faced the challenges.
Go to the top of this page. Press "all posts". Scroll down to the various sections eg anxiety depression and read up.