I’m new here, and don’t quite know how to begin. Classic Anxiety, I’m already worried I’m taking up space I shouldn’t and am being obnoxious.
But here goes. I guess to introduce myself I could give a roundup of why I’m here today.
It’s been a tough year or two for us all… even for the “neurotypical”. The biggest drivers toward desperation for me right now are social isolation bordering on agoraphobic tendencies, physical manifestations of my mental health state, and a fear of my work.
there are projects that are still unfinished months after they should have been. I’ve not been or felt able to work full time since around May, but I try hard to keep the fires burning. I haven’t worked more than an hour or two for over a week now, or even left the house, and the financial stress and fear for my position is growing to a sort of crippling weight. The only things I seem able to address are short turn around items, or immediate assistance to some one who is also stressed.
im physically weaker than I’ve ever been, and the physical symptoms of my “stuff” and the pain it brings have drained my energy reserves - and of course I’m incredibly guilty and ashamed about my lack of capacity.
im kinda choking up sharing this because my social circle has dwindled since working from home started in 2020, and my closest friends are now overseas. In fact, the closest and most immediate form of emotional support available to me (apart from my once a month therapist) is my Ex partner - which is obviously fraught territory…
while I don’t seem to have much of anything left in the tank right now, I hope to be able to become a contriving and supportive member of the community here.