Hi Mama Y,
Welcome to the forums and thanks for joining us.
I'd also like to welcome you to the guilt party, where you are not alone in the way that you are feeling. Sometimes people come and post here and they feel like their problems aren't 'big enough', or they shouldn't feel the way they do because they might have a roof over their head. I know with trauma especially we have a wonderful skill of minimising our pain even if it hurts so much.
I'm not sure if this is something that you can relate to, but you're welcome here and I hope you can enjoy being apart of this community.