Just another thing Rossi1968,
Its not your fault that your brain wonders in the way it does……. But you really CAN get control of your mind and bring it into line so it works for you and not against you.
How? It takes practice………
When you find your mind wonders off onto something that you don’t want it on … you need to recognise when it has done this and then bring it back to the present moment.
If you are riding your bike and your mind wonders gently bring it back to the present moment…… what can you hear? What does your helmet feel like on your head? How do your gloves feel on your hands?
I highly recommend you start meditation….. ASAP….. when I first started meditation I use to think to myself what’s this going to do? But after doing it for a while it taught me that I’m not my thoughts but the watcher of my thoughts….. I can now sit back and observe my thoughts and not get caught up in them … you can learn this too……, look for a guided meditation for learning to watch your thoughts and do it every day! I strongly encourage it…
It all takes practice… sometimes if I feel anxious I just revert back to what I learned in meditation and every thing begins to flow again…..
Practice slowing down your breathing
Practice reading positive affirmations and practice gratefulness this helps to renew your mind….
You will get there .. I believe you will regain your confidence on your bikes…. You just need to be taught the skills to manage your anxiety… and they are skills you need to practice them so they become engrained into your daily life….
Life will get better for you, stay positive…..