Wellcome to our forums!
So sorry you are feeling this way…
I understand intrusive thoughts I was diagnosed with severe anxiety OCD….. this disorder consisted of intrusive thoughts that would repeat they would send my anxiety to severe levels….My intrusive thoughts terrified me… I felt like I was living in an internal hell….
I’d also perform compulsions to try to bring my anxiety down eg…. Checking things
I seeked professional help for what I was experiencing……I saw a gp we did a mental health together , I was also put on a antidepressant to help me to manage my anxiety,I then saw a clinical phycologist and a psychiatrist who diagnosed me this condition this then led me to a group therapy that specialised in OCD this is we’re I learned to master my OCD……… OCD is very treatable and you can recover with the correct help…..
I have written two threads you may be interested in reading….
from someone who had ocd and recovered
effective treatment for OCD metacognitive therapy
If your intrusive thoughts are distressing you I highly recommend you see your gp and let them know how you are feeling…
im here to chat… ask me any thing