Hello Doinit4kidz, your post is a rather powerful comment as I see it, thanks for providing your thread and welcome to the site.
For you to be 17 years clean is certainly an amazing accomplishment to achieve, however, even by doing so doesn't stop the trials and tribulations of what does happen to those you care for, so to be able to handle this is completely different to when you were addicted yourself, although all the circumstances have definitely changed, never the less is great for you to have joined the forums.
People recovering or at least trying to, from addiction can often have one or more relapse, it's not necessarily written down as part of the course, it just seems to happen and there are definitely no rules telling you when it could happen, but possible reasons why.
When someone suffers from anxiety, it's likely for them to struggle with addiction and try and find out a way to relieve themselves of the symptoms it causes and we hope your thread can continue as there would be much more that needs to be said.
Please get back to us when you can.