Hey bob58, I'm really happy you joined the forums and a VERY warm welcome to you!
I hope you find the forums a safe and supportive space to share whatever is going on for you.
I wanted to let you know of a 2 other threads in particular which may keep you company over night. One is for the Night Owls and another is the BB Cafe. Just put either of these titles into the Search bar and away you go!
I've also had anxiety and depression spanning many years. Last year I was formally diagnosed with Complex PTSD and suspected Depressive mood disorder (but I think the last one is just sadness with dealing with major events tbh). Still I have suffered from deep depression and manage both to a level where they don't really affect me (I think lol) anymore without meds.
BUT in saying that if prescribed meds work for a person then I say GO FOR IT!
My List of what works for me is pretty long!
I've had Exposure therapy for the anxiety which was triggered and maintained by 2 specific people, so it was "easier" in a way than not knowing at all. So my heart goes out to you about that.
Managing depression and anxiety is calmed by a few go tos.
An overarching strategy for everyone is noted by research and is Self-Care, believe it or not lol.
We have a Self-care thread also you're welcome to venture in to!
Another few are feeling safe, eating well, lots of "movement" (I detest the word exercise lol), sleeping well and humour.
Not so easily done! But all are very good for me.
I'll pop back in to see how you're going and I hope to see you in the Cafe or other threads also.
Everyone will be very happy to meet you!