dear MT, well I'd like to welcome you to the site and understand that living in a children's home for 13 years wouldn't have been the best environment, with little way of being loved and nurtured.
I am sure that all these children, including yourself would always have an uphill battle when you are allowed to leave, and it's no wonder that you have suffered.
I want to congratulate you on achieving a degree at uni and would love to know what the course was about.
You have now connected with a lot of friends here on this site, some will reply and some won't, but that doesn't mean that people aren't reading your post.
So I'm 60, old isn't it and where have all those years gone, well a good chunk was wiped out by my depression, and after going to a private school I'm sure that my Dad would have been disappointed, but life goes on.
Would love to hear more about you. Geoff.