I've been diagnosed with GAD, Major Depressive Disorder and there's a possibility of ADHD being tinted in there too, as of late (last month I think I got diagnosed), but I've been dealing and suffering with it for the past 4 years of my life largely alone and unspoken.
I wanted to get on here because I guess I have some issues with my psychologist and didn't know if what was happening to me was normal and just kind of wondering what a bunch of others might think
I struggled even getting on here and making my account because I was constantly telling myself (and even now) how this won't help at all and I'm just wasting my time. I think of that for a lot of things and I guess it's why I've spent so much of my life just rotting away. I sure hope this doesn't get left unposted!
I feel as if my psychologist is a little judgemental. I'm not sure what it is that makes me think this but I guess it's the tone when he explains certain things about me feels like I'm being talked down too not so sure. He also barely responds to any of my emails I send him and I get the feeling a lot of the "thought diaries" which is meant to help me and also help him get a better idea of my issues AND the emails themselves he doesn't read. Sometimes he is spot on with issues with me but with some other cases I just feel like he is dead wrong and what sucks is that he keeps bringing up those problems I think are dead wrong as if it's something I'm struggling with or something we have to deal with. Feel like I'm a secondary priority, maybe not taking things seriously enough. After my second ever session he made me wait 3 weeks for the next one especially when I was feeling particular vulnerable. Those weeks felt like hell.
I don't know I feel like I'm doubting myself a whole lot writing this down and second guessing whether any of this is correct or I'm just overexaggerating I'm not sure I don't feel certain of myself but this is it! My first post! (sorry if it's a bit of a whinge fest)