Hi countryatheart,
You sound like you’re dealing with a lot of emotions at the moment. The self esteem issues, loneliness and perhaps feeling both overwhelmed and emotionally paralysed at the same time must be rough...I really feel for you...
I think sometimes we might think that everyone else is doing okay, but I think everyone has problems to varying degrees. My personal experience is I’ve often found people who seem happy aren’t always as happy as they seem/let on. But of course, that said, everyone’s experience is different...
I know you’re going through a lot at the moment and I sense your pain. Would you like to tell us a little more about the situations you’re struggling with?
Kind and caring thoughts,
Pepper