I'm Noel, 20 and currently a third-year international student at university. I'm not sure how to begin with introductions and all. My counsellor suggested me this site and I decided to give it a try. It's been a very tough year for me. I'm not sure if I'm comfortable enough to go into details about it, but needless to say I feel very lost and hopeless.
I've been losing confidence in myself more and more, anxious than ever especially in the middle of this pandemic. Uncertainty of the future scares me a lot. There are plenty of other things happening at home that put me under a lot of pressure as well. It's just too much for me to handle and I am scared.
I'm not so sure as to what I'm expecting out of this site, but the very least I'd love to find people who can relate with how I'm feeling and offer support through this tough times. Heck, let's support each other through it all even.
Slightly off the track but my interests include writing (screenplays and creative writing mostly), reading, drawing and filmmaking (a career I'm trying to pursue). It'd be great if we happen to share the same interests or at least one or two!
To be perfectly honest, I don't want to make this post too upsetting, but it's really hard for me to even write this without breaking into tears just because I'm so lost without any answers or certainty. It has made me quite depressed. I've never really checked with a psychiatrist whether I'm clinically depressed or not, so I don't want to specifically say I have depression. It's just the right term to describe how I'm feeling these past couple of months.
I thank you all for making the time and effort to read through this, whoever you are. I sincerely wish you well especially in these times. Any words of advice, replies or comments are much appreciated.