i stopped taking my meds about 3 months ago, cold turkey (yes I know!). It took about 6 weeks + for the side effects to stop and for the numb feelings to stop. I have always been a caring, compassionate person with loads of empathy, on the meds I was nothing, I could stand there and watch someone get hurt and feel nothing, NOTHING!
working with my psyc, we are working on reading the signs and learning to take a breather or take myself away from situations, come back later. This is a real struggle for me. I have always been so stubborn to succeed, I guess proving to myself I am good enough, but after the total burn out, I can’t do it anymore. I feel like I have failed and am lazy. It really chews me up.
i just want the world to stop so I can get off, Live in a cabin in the bush. Or something. I have started to go camping and 4x4 driving since feb, it helps escape without the need of drowning myself in scotch.
training myself to accept the pace I can handle now is a challenge I am slowly getting through. It’s just a massive contrast from the 60-70 hour working weeks prior for as long as I can remember.
everything is new and challenging,
sorry, been a really hard few days. Downloading too much!