Hey, so I’m new and I’ve never done this before but I guess I’ll just start.
I’m currently struggling with my mental health. I’m not diagnosed with anything and haven’t been to a counsellor or anything before.
Idk I’ve just moved houses from one state to another. It was such a huge move. I was fine with it at the start and after about a year in (about nowish) I’m currently now doing as well as I thought I was.
Idk what it is but like,, I don’t have much motivation, I’m in my last year of high school so I kinda need it right now! I am experiencing highs and lows not even just with my mental well-being and how I’m coping with life.
For fun I play netball, but lately it’s just getting boring and not at all enthusing as it once used to be. It’s more like a chore than anything. the day before I have my games I am excited to play and then on the day I’m just so low and tired and not wanting to do anything.
Idk I sometimes burst into tears when I’m alone. It’s not even that often I just feel lonely and like I need someone to comfort me But I don’t want comfort at the same time.
I blame it on my hormones and shit but idk if it’s just that or it’s me.
Like my coach for netball she saw something this afternoon and she messaged me not that long ago asking whether I was fine and needed help or anything. And I always tell people I’m fine and good and grand but i just don’t know how I feel and I don’t know what else to say other than that. My friends have noticed it as well but I say the same shit that I’m good and it’s nothing to worry about. Just stress from year 12.
just thinking about people even asking whether I’m good makes me want to cry and just tell people what’s happening. But I don’t even know what’s happening.
I struggle with expressing my emotions effectively, and I don’t know what to do or who to talk to. I struggle making romantic relationships too I’m not sure why but I just can’t seem to get close to anyone at all. It’s ridiculous. My love life is basically not there at all and I feel like I’m falling while everyone else is growing as adults.
I know that I’ll just get ridiculed by my family if I talk to them about what’s happening in my head. I always fight with my mum. Our relationship isn’t the best too.
My friends see my nuclear family as perfect and with nothing wrong but since I have only just become close with them they don’t really know what’s up at home.
Idk what to do after I post this I might not look at it but at least it’s out there.