Hi, I have ?anxiety?depression?post partum depression? Or just exacerbated anxiety and depression from having kids?
I reach out for help and get referred here and there but no one really listens. I think I am abit paranoid? I am too afraid to express myself to my family/friends because I think I have complained enough with no action.
what action am I looking for though ?
I don’t want to express my feelings to my friends because I don’t want to scare them off. I have been told that I am “too much” or “what’s wrong now” that I don’t want to speak anymore.
my best support is my husband
I even think that my psychologist is tired of me :/ I can never really express what I want or feel properly. Also I’ve never really gotten deep into my issues : childhood trauma grief assault, not a great relationship with mother.
I am super self conscious, I am not in my best shape after having kids, I think that everyone looks at me and thinks they are better than me. I haven’t worked to my full potential for awhile so we have cut back on material things. In a world where material things show your worth (especially in my circle) then I am worthless.
I am extremely uncomfortable in my own skin and don’t like my own company lately because my mind isn’t being kind.