Welcome to the forums. We are sorry to hear everything that you are dealing with right now, it sounds like it must be really overwhelming at times for you. However it's also really great to hear that you've found some ways to relax such as listening to calming music and meditating. Please know that our friendly community is here to offer as much support and conversation as you need.
If you feel it might be useful, we'd also encourage you to visit our Coronavirus Mental Wellbeing Support Service.
The website will be regularly updated with information, advice and strategies to help you manage your wellbeing and mental health during this time. You can also call our dedicated support line, staffed by mental health professionals, which is available 24/7 at the Beyond Blue Coronavirus Mental Wellbeing Support Service on 1800 512 348.
Feel free to keep your thread updated here to let us know how you are going whenever you feel up to it.