Hello Himm, as Smallwolf has said we hope you feel comfortable and a warm welcome to the forums.
It's never easy to begin trying to open up to people you don't know but sometimes that's what people like about this, and please remember that we too have been in similar situations ourselves and want to let you know that you're not alone.
Take your time and begin at your pace, there will be someone who will always reply back to you
Geoff