Welcome to BeyondBlue and thanks for reaching out.
You are definitely in the right place to find people who can relate. It looks as though your post went into Welcome/Orientation, but if you go back to the Online Forums page and head towards the forums that read 'Depression' or 'Men' then you should be able to find lots of posts from people in the same boat.
I've linked to them below too:
Hope this helps. Hopefully you can find the support you need here.
Feel free to reach out again - or remember if you need to talk to someone, you can ring the BeyondBlue support line.