Good morning Jessicaman!!!
Thank you so much for reaching out and sharing your story. I really appreciate that. You are a very brave person!!! Well done on that!!! Since you are open about your problem, half of the battle has already been won!!!
First of all, I have also greatly suffered from depression, social and generalized anxiety, and phobias and on top experienced obesity and eating disorder throughout my childhood and adolescence. I know completely how it feels. That is why I really want to work with you and we can definitely get through this!
After reading your post, I think you are doing everything to lose weight - eating clean/exercising etc. Good job!! But the problem I think is that there is some self-doubt in your journey, am I correct? Please correct me!
I think self-doubt is a good thing because it happens when you are doing everything that is required (completely immersed in the process). But not too much where it can drain your energy. To me, you are doing great but try focusing on daily goals, like short term goals, try not to focus on the result. It will happen!! And as you focus on the day to day goals everything will come in harmony.
Hope that helps.
Please tell me about your daily routine and what are support activities you are currently undertaking?
Talk to you soon