Thank you for coming to the forums and welcome to this open, understanding and caring community. It sounds like you are having an incredbily difficult time at the moment and we are really sorry to hear that you are feeling so low. We want to say how brave we think it is that you have been able to share your story with us today - it is an incredible step towards feeling better. Thank you for your courage.
We think it could be useful for you to chat to one of the wonderful people on our phoneline by calling 1300 22 4636. They are great at giving practical advice on how we can feel better in ourselves and where else we might be able to get support. If you prefer you can also call Lifeline on 13 11 14 - our friends at Lifeline are wonderful and caring too!
We think it could be helpful for you to have a look around our forums to find the many other conversations being had that might resonate with you. We understand how you are feeling and while your experience is your own we think you might find some that are similiar here on the site.