I'm feeling pretty lost and stuck at the moment. Isolated and undersupported.
A friend made a joke about how the challenges that I've faced in life are me travelling through 9 layers of hell. It felt rather apt at the time, and gave hope that there might eventually be an end to the struggle. I know that's not really the case, that the fight doesn't end; it merely morphs into a different battle.
Anxiety, depression, ADHD, complex emotional trauma- the list goes on.
My latest struggle is finding a new home after being sexually assaulted and having my partner of 6 years leave me for cheating in the aftermath. Money is tight, stress is high, and I don't feel like I'm making any headway. I've never lived on my own, don't feel prepared to do so, but moving back in with my parents isn't an option. It's terrifying. I'm in pretty bad shape to be starting such a journey.
I want someone to hold my hand, encourage me, believe in me and help me push through it all.
I just don't know how to become that person. How do you build yourself up when your own mind works against you?