I really feel for you. You sound stressed, down and perhaps even lonely.
Your thread title “work pressures” caught my attention. I think it’s because I feel that I can relate to your work stress/pressures, even if our circumstances may not be the same.
In addition, you have anxiety and I understand that can be very draining. It can definitely take its toll. I would imagine that your current work environment probably doesn’t help your anxiety very much...
But I also understand that job options are limited where you are...that must be hard. On the one hand, I realise you obviously need an income. But on the other hand, your work is very stressful. That’s rough...
I’m not sure if I have been much help. But I am reading along, & would like you to know that if you feel like sharing more (no pressure), there’s a lot of compassion here :)
kindness & care,