Hi everyone, this is my first post and the closest I can get to some form of help..
As of recently (the past 6 months), I have been extremely stressed/tired/anxious/overwhelmed - primarily from school. I have extremely high expectations of myself in achieving a 98 ish atar, but as of now things aren't exactly going as I hoped and some of my marks/ranks are subpar. Aside from that I'm having trouble starting anything from anxiety, and now i'm left with a few days before my assessment with almost no preparation.
This isn't the reason I'm writing here though. All of this has been amplified by my parents that are constantly yelling, shouting, screaming at me, telling me how much they hate me, and how I'm useless, how I won't accomplish anything. They make no room to prioritise giving me some space, or listen on to my needs. No, infact they laugh and yell ay me when I cry, telling me its irrational.
Now as a student who wants/almost needs to achieve a 98...I have so much, too much workload. But all this pressure is just getting to me. Its too much, so much. And I don't have time for a break, or my break ends up being waay too long you know.
Getting any sort of counselling is also off the table.... bc parents. And overall, Im very uncomfortable talking about family to anyone I know who is close to me.
Please, what should I do. I'm trying to be strong and balance all this pressure, overhwelming anxiety and stress whilst maintaining good grades and dealing with my parents but its...hard.