Welcome to the community and it is really great you have come for some support today - you are not a failed person...can I say to you that poor spelling and grammar is not who you are and not what an employer basis a decision on..ok sure if you were going for a role as an editor, this would come into play, however, there are so many things you are capable of doing and being successful at, as you can see, you enrolled and completed a TAFE course to better yourself and to get some more skills, how wonderful is that. Can I also tell you that I am hopeless at maths, I have a daughter in year 8, I have not been able to help her from about grade 5! I know it is a weakness but does it define me...no way..does it impact my role at work..no way..I do things that don't require the use of math and have managed just fine..I am 45. You have sooo many other skills that you can call on to make your life a success, you are capable and you are no failure.
We have choices, I guess if the maths really bothered me I can do some online things to help me improve, I have even at times had to do that so I can help my daughter when she is having a meltdown....you could increase your spelling skills by reading and I am sure there are things online that you can do to improve this, if you choose to...but it does not make Mark29 who he is!!!
I am so happy to hear that you have sought some professional help with your feelings, can I say though that not always do we make the right connection with the first one or even two or even five we meet, that unless we have that good connection only then will the healing and the feeling of support be there for you.
I am also happy to hear that you have strategies, if you want to share them here we can do that to perhaps find out some more that might work for you, I would be happy to chat some more to you about that if you wanted to.
I hope to chat to you some more Mark 29