Welcome to the forums, we are so glad that you've taken a big step in reaching out to our wonderful community here. We're so sorry to hear how much you've been suffering lately, but please know that you've come to safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need.
If you feel it may be helpful, we'd really encourage you to get in touch with Kids Help Line. They are a confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged 25 and under, and are available 24/7 on 1800 55 1800 as well as through webchat if you'd feel more comfortable talking online: https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling
We’d also welcome you to reach out to our Beyond Blue Support Service, which is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or also through Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
. One of the friendly counsellors will be able to offer support, as well as advice and referrals for further support.
We hope that you keep checking back in and let us know how you are going when you feel up to it. We're all here for you.