I know what you mean with the lockdowns and all that - I'm also in QLD and just got out of lockdown today obviously, but the fact that we're back to wearing masks feels like it's a bit of a loop.
It seems pretty out of hand hey? I'm so grateful though that while yeah we're having lockdowns, a lot of cases to Australia is like, 10, compared to in other countries (*cough cough* America *cough cough*) where it's actually a BIG issue.
Why did it have to happen? I honestly have no idea. And it sucks. But it's not like it's the ONLY pandemic EVER that has happened. But all those old ones have been forgotten about mostly - because at the time they were really difficult like COVID can seem, but we have never not gotten over a pandemic. It might take a bit more time basically, but things are gonna get better and overall in Australia we are in a really good position.
Just like even though COVID feels like it's never ending but in reality will get better I promise you, the feelings surrounding it and the toughness is temporary. Suicidal thoughts are temporary. Our world is evolving all the time just like us. Taking your life seems like a way of not dealing with everything maybe, but it stops you from getting the satisfaction of when this is all finally over. There is so much more out there for you. Don't let what's going on right now stop you.
There is HOPE and there is happiness in finding that hope.
Take care xx