I wasn't sure where to post this because now that I think about it, this situation sounds more like a stupid excuse than anything. I'm supposed to be at school right now doing my presentations for some subjects, but I'm at home, why?
Because I didn't finish the scripts for them. And yes, it was partially to do with the fact that I procrastinated, but I really wanted to finish it all last night and I somehow didn't. Usually, I get my school work done on time, but lately, I haven't been getting anything done on time at all, and it's been bothering me to no end.
I used to work well, but somehow that doesn't work anymore. I get distracted and I don't have any motivation to finish the work. I get worried about the outcome of the grade and I don't trust myself.
I think for a while I've had some underlying mental health and commitment issues. I know that I am definitely an obsessive worrier. I always overthink many situations to the point where I scare myself into not doing something, which makes me withdraw further away from asking for help. For example, to authenticate that I missed my presentations and to do them later, I need to hand in a doctor's certificate. What I am going to tell the doctor? "I didn't finish my assignments because I was too worried that I wouldn't do well so I stayed home instead to avoid doing the presentation?" What if they say no? What will I do then? (This example was actually the whole point I decided to write this post for help;;;) These kinds of thoughts make me end up lying to people about my real situation and it just adds onto the worries that have already accumulated, which does not make my head any lighter from carrying the worries.
I'd also a high-achieving student, so I pride myself on being smart and knowing things because, without that, I'm not sure what else I have. Sure, I may be nice to people on a surface level, but most of the time, I make friends with the intention of using them to help myself get a better reputation in school and just in general look like a decent human being.
I don't know what to do, and at this point, this post has become a vent post.
Anyway, what should I do about the presentation issue? Should I just ask my dad to take me to a doctor and to ask them if they're willing to give me a medical certificate to excuse me for today? I still need a legitimate reason, and I'm scared to talk to my school counsellors about it just in case they don't let me do my presentation and fail me instead for it.