Good morning Bluetime00!!
Welcome to BeyondBlue online forums and thanks for reaching out and sharing your story with me.
I can honestly relate to your story. Personally, being a sufferer of social/generalised anxiety, having fears and then all those problems got turned into my eating disordered behaviors and I became super obese throughout my childhood and adolescence - I completely understand it is quite annoying when we live in a constant fear that what will people think of me!! Am I that boring? How can I make other people like me?
When I was in school, this is what I exactly did!!! I literarily came across begging my classmates to be my friends and like me. I lost my self-respect, and even worse I lost myself in the midst of 'impressing, wanting to be liked, etc.' by my peers. What did I gain? I became extremely anxious (socially/generally/started having phobias which then I hid those feelings behind comfort eating!!).
So one day it really struck me. I decided to make a change!! From that day onwards, I simply did what I wished!! Not caring/impressing/being like by others!! I became I.
Like I always wanted to be in the best lean shape of my life - so I gave myself a goal!!! Successfully, I achieved it!! I did my first fat loss transformation (which is a life transformation) and guess what? All my anxiety/fears/depression etc. disappeared. As well as, I became fully vegan (only consuming whole food plant-based diet and incorporated meditation/yoga/religious practices in my daily lifestyle. Now, I am I and interestingly now people around me get attracted!!!
So, the answer was quite simple!! I just connected my body and my mind. Instead of looking for love from outside, I started loving myself.
This was my experience.
In your case, maybe try doing something just for yourself. If you have a fear that what will happen if no one like me, then are you saying to yourself that you cannot live with yourself? - these were the questions I used to ask myself.
Please tell me more about yourself. What are your hobbies? I would really like to help you out!!