Hi everyone. I made a post a little while ago but thought I'd make another one in this section with some updates.
Lately I've been experiencing anxiety, depression and general fear related to the future/my life. I'm almost constantly overthinking and coming up with new 'what-ifs' and it leaves me anxious, depressed and exhausted. I'm on a new medication which has helped with the symptoms and I have been able to function more, but it hasn't helped with the thoughts. I do see a psychologist.
I'd like to write a list of some of the things worrying me and, if I may, keep a bit of a diary here of my thoughts and feelings. Maybe some of you can offer some consolation on the subjects. Here goes...
-War/Nuke war/WWIII/myself and/or my boyfriend being drafted. This all started with the North Korea tensions when I started reading more into the subjects and obsessing over news articles and the like. This used to be the main issue, but then it grew and grew and spread to more worries and fears, before that I've never really worried about big world events like these...
-Apocalypse, of some description. End of the world. A deadly virus/plague. The Sun dying or burning us all. Zombies. Anything.
-Climate change/global warming, rising seas, flooding, natural disasters, drought, suffocation from dust or co2, an ice age? Anything related to climate change is one of my biggest worries at the moment. I read that Stephan Hawking says humans only have 100 years left on earth. I won't be here by then, but does that mean the last years/decades of my life will be horrible?
-My health, getting cancer etc. I'm scared that I'll get some disease, cancer etc and die young and/or die and leave my family behind. I've stopped eating red meat and have been thinking about going vegetarian/vegan because of the health risks that come from meat etc. to help my anxiety a bit..
-Running out of oil/coal etc...
-Dying, in general. The afterlife, or lack thereof. What happens when we die? Will I be able to see my family again? Does heaven exist? All these questions really worry me. I don't have a religion or really believe in God as such, but I like to think there is some sort of afterlife where we all live peacefully in some other dimension. But I fear it will just be nothingness.
I think that's all the main things that I've been dwelling on lately... I look forward to any and all replies. Even writing this post has made me feel that little bit better tonight.