What was going through my head at the time was this strange thought pattern that everything was going wrong, that I achieved nothing and everything was bad in my life, and it was just amazing how it was all consuming, and it was on my mind 24/7, it's just wearing me out.
The main part of depression/anxiety is that you feel really, really isolated and you feel really, really alone.
I tried to focus a lot on my baby and my daughter, but as the days went past, it was like the darkness was starting to creep in and eventually it got to a point where I didn't wanna get out of bed.
The beginning of the process is actually recognising that there's something wrong and that it's not right that you should feel the way you're feeling then you can decide right now I need to take action.
I was all alone, there was no people around, so the only thing I thought I could do is actually ring beyondblue. I did that and it was such a good job. I didn't feel alone. It allowed me to actually move on from where I was in the hole that I was.
Seeking help is you realise when you actually get to how important it is.
It's helped me to get on with my life and making new life for myself and therefore, making my life worth living.
Right now, over 3 million Australians are living with depression or anxiety or both and many, many more will have friends, family members, and work mates that are struggling and having a tough time. Today, like every day in Australia seven people would die by suicide, that's twice the national road toll. These are shocking figures and that's why beyondblue is here to support all of us, all of you at any time, no matter who you are, where you live, and what's going on in your life.
beyondblue is a relatively young organisation but already it worked throughout Australia, is having a profound impact not only on the community members we seek to serve but also on the way in which governments look at issues relating to mental health. beyondblue has developed a reputation for making a difference for getting things done.
And we're always looking for ways to reduce stigma, tackle discrimination and saying no to it, and to encourage people to take control of their own lives and to empower themselves to get better. Visit our website, www.beyondblue.org.au and take those first steps if you're worried about yourself or if you're worried about someone else to get your life back on track.