Hello. I am so sorry that you have lost two babies recently. It is dreadful when when all your expectations of having a wonderful baby disappear. My daughter lost her baby at 19 weeks and the whole family felt the loss. I can only imagine how sad you and your husband are feeling.
At the moment you feel so sad and that you will always feel this way. I realise this is not much comfort but you will get stronger. Feeling lost like this is a horrible place to be but it's OK to feel this way. Parents need time to grieve over their loss and some help to manage. It's natural to want to cry and I would be nervous going anyway because of the need to cry. Do you have other family who can help you with the day to day tasks outside of your home? Just until you can regain your strength.
When my daughter miscarried it felt like the end of the world. While she and her husband stayed at home I did bits for them. Has someone been able to tell your family and friends about your loss. I know it's too hard for you to do this. Give someone a list of those you want informed.
I would love to put my arms around you and hold you tight. You need so much comfort. When you see the psychologist, please talk as much as you can. Crying is OK, he/she will be used to this. Is someone going to take you there? You should not make this journey on your own, especially while you are so emotional. Let your friends and family look after you. I know you will want time on your own but don't push everyone away. Let them share your grief because it makes it just a little bit easier for you.
It's also good to write about your feelings. Beyond Blue is a safe place to do this. Someone is always here to answer you.