Hi Tony.
Thank you for your reply :-)
When I was saying that my friends had come out the other side, in a way yes I was comparing myself to them - but more so because it sort of gives me hope for the future and that maybe one day I will be able to move on and enjoy life in the way that they are.
In terms of my passions and accomplishments - I am a primary school teacher and I have been for 10 years. In 2020 I was meant to travel overseas and spend the year exploring the world and of course that wasn’t able to happen. 💔
This year I am working at a school but I’m really not happy in my role and I can’t see me being there beyond this year. It is an open learning community set up so I don’t have my own class and that is something I really miss 😢
Also, with remote learning it makes it increasingly difficult as the face-to-face aspect of teaching has taken away.
In terms of my family I have two beautiful nieces (2.5 & 4.5) who I absolutely adore and enjoy spending time with when I can. I have an older brother and my parents who I also try to see as much as I can.
I have a lot of friends around the world but unfortunately due to my current travel plans in 2020 I have been unable to reunite with them as I had hoped.
I do have some friends fairly locally however I moved to a new area for my job and I’m finding it increasingly difficult to meet people. My partner usually works six days A week so I’m finding myself feeling quite alone at times.
I think the biggest thing for me is that I really thought by now the events of the past we have become a distant memory and I would’ve been able to find a way to move forward more entirely. The other thing is as much as I want to be a mother I am absolutely terrified of the prospect of being pregnant and having a baby, also because I worry that the events of the past will come back to haunt me.
I think the biggest thing for me is that I really thought by now the events of the past we have become a distant memory and I would’ve been able to find a way to move forward more entirely. The other thing is as much as I want to be a mother I am absolutely terrified of the prospect of being pregnant and having a baby, also because I worry that the events of the past will come back to haunt me.
My biggest fear is that the opportunity I felt I had to give up all those years ago is one that I am not at all certain I will get again in the future 💔💔💔