Jase, that is so friggin awesome what you did for him. You may very well have saved his life. Just think about that for a minute. You had a gut feeling, you followed it and you acted upon it. That is superior awesomesness right there.
Don't worry mate, you are not causing me any grief by engaging with you in here. I do it because i am so lucky to have recovered and i believe that I owe it those that are not to some how help them through their journey. I love doing it and believe it or not, I am actually thankful that I went through it, certainly wasn't fun at the time and still isn't at times, but it has opened my eyes a hell of a lot.
Yes i believe that you can get back to true happiness. For the most part I am but i am still recovering. I am so much more relaxed than i have been in years. I am not fussed by so much more than i used to be. If it is out of my control, I don't worry about it. I have times of extreme happiness which is not a normal level for healthy people but they are really cool as it reinforces to me that i still have the capabilities to feel alive, not just surviving but actually living.
Takes time dude, i know it is annoying massively, but in time, do the small things right, keep hitting the waves, when you feel crap be kind to yourself.
Playing in the snow here in Detroit with the kids is simply awesome but i know this is not natural but it is adding to the great memories to draw on when i have a crap day.
You have one hell of an awesome memory to think up when you have a crap day - you may well have saved your mates life. Yes it is a bad situation, but if you flip it to a positive, it is huge.