Hi Kazzl,Croix, Mark, Dool and crew

Thanks for all your support and advise im just being lazy today my good Friend is back from Holliday and really look forward to getting better so i can be off some use as much as im there for him he equally if not more is there for me when he heard about my accident and was stuck at hospital he made sure some came to see me and gave me some coin for taxi food etc what a champion very lucky to have a friend like him , he like you he always every day even though his is on holiday finds the time to ask me how am i traveling and to rest up and take care of myself.

Really look forward to catching up with

I reckon i will be all good buy Monday bit worried about my neck really stiff and soar this morning i can feel my ankle is little better today chest is the most painful otherwise im all good

Im going to look it why this truck did not havve warning signs up work ahead or any cones around or hazard lights on and was parked in a no parking zone council worker should have know better should be safety first always

Take care all regards jason

Hi Jason,

It is excellent you are getting on and planning time in the ocean. I don't mean to be a nag, just want to remind you to get checked out if things don't feel quite right. Injuries can take a while to manifest!

Wishing you all the best with your recovery and beach time!

Cheers from Dools

Morning Jason, hope you're feeling better again today.

It's so good you have a close friend like that (is that Vince?).

I agree with Mrs Dools about getting checked out if you don't feel right. Injuries can take some time ...

Well, I wish you a good day today mate, peace in your mind and healing in your body. You're an important part of our community here Jase, so look after yourself yeah?

Kaz

xx

Good to hear from you Jase. I would suggest that you are not having a "lazy" day but rather a "recovery" day. You still have physical injuries to get over and if you push yourself, they may get worse so continue to recover and take it easy.

Cheers mate

Mark.

Good morning to you all

I just woke up from a 10 hr sleep gee am i soar this morning neck and chest are really painfull i had some breakfeast back in bed now so painfull

Yes Kazzl Vince is a great friend but its my friend who is coming back from Holliday who im talking about he is like the brother i never had, very caring person , im lucky

Hope you you all have a fantastic day

Thinking off you beautiful people always and always will regards Jason

Hi Jason

You sound much rested - but sore. Do you think all that pain is part of the healing - or do you think you need it looked at more?. They don't always find things out at the time.

Isn't it great to have friends to help, it makes life possible even in bad circumstances.

Are you planning another day of rest in bed?

Croix

Hi Croix

Trying to relax

Vince popped over today bought me a dvd player and food what a champion just watch the movie punnisher now half way through just got back from shops. this is bothering me

I just went for a walk to the shops (painfull) ouch,locked the house up windows everything and one off the custom hand crafted harley vrods models im making for a friend, when i got home it was smashed on the floor , i hate that feeling off uncertainty could someone have been in here and grabbed it, not realizing its ony 60% complete it wasn't finished i shoulder have had cctv up already

Anyway my ankle is starting to throb going to put foot up and watch the rest off apocalypse now speek soon

Regards jason

Hi Jason

Must have been pretty good to see Vince, it's great when friends look after you. Which 'Punisher' movie was it, I think there might have been 3 of them, all based on Frank Castle comic book character. Was it 'The War Zone'?

With the model, first off I had not released that was another of your talents - did you ride a bike yourself, I did just about every day up till around 5 years ago when my back got worse - mainly Jap stuff.

Don't know why it was on the floor - hopefully it just fell and nobody was there.

Getting out for a bit must have been a nice change, even if it did make the aches worse.

Enjoy the move.

Croix

Hi Croix

Just kicking back on the couch think its all hitting me now how messed up the last 13months have been now theres no car and its going to make life tougher than it already was what a start to 2017 you no i struggle relly do struggle to see things improving im commited to $500 fortnight rent and $120 now i dont no seams near on impossible.

So im just kicking back contemplating what the future holds something tells me 2017 could be my last year on this planet its just been a train wreck up to now

I will getback to you going to watch movie and didnt no there was 3 punisher movies when i get up i will take a look watching ( end off watch)

Talk soon

Hey Jase, good to hear that you are getting mobile again.

Before you right off 2017 as your last on the earth, just think about what you have been through the last 13 months and the very fact that you have survived it. This tells me you are one hell of a resilient person. Please see if you can switch it around, turn 2017 into your year. Perhaps sit down with Vince and work out some goals that you would like to attain? I would think that you two are close enough and have both been through some harrowing experiences. Might be good for each other.

If you do set some goals, set achievable ones and once you complete them, re-assess and set new ones. I believe that you can do it. You are tough mate, extremely tough. You have so much to give and so much life ahead of you.

Cheers

Mark.

Hi Mark

Vince and i are good friends

My buddy who will be back off holiday soon is whom i is who motivates me to want to get up and help him out as at times when i have needed support the most he has always been there .it was his daughter i made the last to rainbow' s still have not given her the other one she can give to her friend really look forward to helping her put the names on it

Take care Jason

Hi Mark ad crew

Hope you all had a fantastic weekend, mine was not to bad watched few movies first time i actually injoyed the comforts of the place im in

Maybe i need a injury every no and then joking joking. But funny enough maybe this car crash i can pull a positive out off it it may have broken my cycle of having to keep busy to stop myself from dwelling on the situation i find myself in

You no guys its a very comfortable feeling knowing that my opa knows

Phone is playing up says some time my device has been hacked and to download this app

Anyway back to were i was yes its a very comfortable feeling to no that my Opa knows the truth and even though he has passed away he has made it very evident to me that we are closer than ever

The thing that bothers me is he is very upset with wjat he has come to understand and i feel he thinks it is very important that his wife my Omi knows that im not the bad person i have been betrayed to be by my so called family

I really dont care what people think off me i no im not perfect but as a human there is always room for me to improve and to become a better person ,saying that ,i no i can look myself in the mirror every morning and i feel i sence of pride as i do my best to not hurt anyone intentionally and my driving force and goal in life is unselfish and ultimately is to make this world we live in a safer place and i do understand that it comes with degree off danger this is were i now am thinking clearer and smarter , as to achieve,

Look at were i crashed my car in front of kindy garden ,were i was stabbed at the end of the street is dcps im following my calling and what i believe is my purpose her on earth is , its a beautiful goal with change in law that is well over due and a im prepared to put my life on the line to get the ball rolling and hopefully witness the change

After all the children are our future and the it is important that they feel safe protected and supported ,if this planet has any hope off being a piecefull place with more love than hate cause from were i sit people love to instale uncertainty war hatred and its not sitting with me

What happened to piece, love ,empathy,loyalty ,honour dignity, integrity, respect ,to mention a few it all be swallowed up buy greed

Have a great day

Talk soon jason

Jase, your last three posts are awesome, especially the second one - you are pulling a positive out of the negative and that my friend, is outstanding. I am so chuffed to read those words. Brilliant.

Can I ask Opa and Omi - I am assuming they are your Grandparents? It is just i have never heard those words before. Still being educated I am!

Your words are very encouraging. It is like there is a shift in your thinking which is very good.

Unfortunately in this world there are people who are evil and there are those that do not care for anyone other than themselves. This is life mate. All we can do is make sure that we are good people and i can tell you that you are a good person.

Keep this shift in thinking going. Love it.

Mark.

Hi Mark

Things are looking like there has been ashift i have a great fella who is advocating on my behalf in regard to the traffic accident i was involved in to prevent something similar happen again

I just received my first appointment with councilor first week in feb final i feel part of our community had hopefully can work out a way to get rid off these flashbacks and nightmares

And thankyou for giving me a boost as in what i stand for it reasuring to no that im finding the positive out of what i thought was only a negative ordeal but yes it did take some searching but i found it my goal lifes purpose so i probably should be greatful as im excited to take on this challenge

I just need to leave emotion out off it be clear,assertive and none aggressive and im sure common sense will eventually prevail

All the best Mark and crew

Jason

Hi Mark

Sorry i didnt clear up your question, yes Omi is my grandmother who is still alive and believes i have done what my family have brainwashed her into believing my Opa passed away believing it and is not happy how i been treated as he knows the full storey and truth its like he is making me feel it is very important that his wife my Omi knows the truth before she passes away my Opa is fumming and can see who i am as a person and what evil intentions have been up against

I so happy he knows and he has made me aware it very comforting feeling its like i dont care for them anymore i dont care what they say about me cause at the end off days im going to a good place with the good souls far away from the evil

All the best Mark thanks Buddy!!

Jase, you superstar! Have a look at the change in outlook that you have. That is so massive - i hope you understand just how big a deal this is.

You have a very unique experience, all be it, a horrible one but at the same time, but just think of the knowledge and wisdom you now possess.

I can well see you in the future being a really good help to people who have gone through similar circumstances to you.

Not yet though, you need to concentrate on you. Consolidate this new found attitude and exploit the hell out of it. Good on ya Jase, so proud of you.

Remember thought that the nature of the beast that is PTSD, you will still have bad days, that is when you look back and remember the coping mechanisms that you have learnt and you will push through the bad days and still achieve something.

Awesome awesome work.

Is it fair to say that you are a spiritual person? I'm interested in how you have communicated with your Opa?

Keep up the great work mate.

Mark.

Hi Mark

I will tell you this and please have a open mind because i have felt a strong presence guide i like to call it and all my guides have not been happy with the transparency that they have come to understand when they passed away it began when my father passed away when i was 17 years old and being denied and forced into signing over a power off attorney from that day i felt a strong presence off my father it ladted up untill my dads father passed away in 1999 and it was as if my grandad to over the position off protecting me and guiding me to the best off his ability well when my Opa passed away i think 2013 it has been overwhelmingly evident to me that his presence is so profound i can even begin to explain and dont no if i even should as i dont want to disrupt the connection its as if the lrss i talk about it the more he reveals to me and lets say six sence intuition had nothing to do with it he has allowed me to discover alot off wrong doing one example only i shall reveal i been taking photos off my so called family's renovations i let it go for 8 months before going to the city off stirling only to find out what he allready told me no building permits or demolitiom permits they are building a house out the back on the tennis court without any council approval we are talking 250 /$300.000.00 renovation remember all i wanted was his war medals and to uphold his wishes which to date i have not done my family wealth has somewhat increased dramatically and for some reason they dont what people shire to no about the money's they are spending on there property i have this confirmation from city sterling when i went there with photos and they could not believe what they saw greed remember all i asked for were his medals Opa is not happy

Hope you have a good eveningbest wishesand thanks once again for your support

Jason

Morning Jason - just popping in to say hi. You are sounding bright, great to know things are looking up for you. 👍

BTW, I have an open mind about feeling the presence of our departed loved ones. I know my mum, dad and nanna are still around, I feel them near me quite often. They pop into my head and tell me things sometimes. If I'm wise I listen. I don't care or need to know whether they are spirits or guides, or whether it's my brain retrieving some wisdom from the memory of them. What matters is the experience of still learning from them and drawing comfort and connection with them. And to remember the love they gave and still give us. I'm glad you have your Opa with you.

Have a good day my friend. Take care

Kaz

Jase, don't worry mate, i have a completely open mind.

I find it very fascinating that people like yourself that have this incredible sense of connection and guidance with love ones that have passed.

Who am I to tell you what you are thinking and not thinking. That is the way i look at it anyway, you are you and you are experiencing things that I have no knowledge about.

Good on you - very happy that you have that kind of spiritual connection with your Opa.

Keep kicking goals mate, loving your work.

Mark.

Hi there Mark Kazzl

Gee im being tested but still feel a sence off hooe

I just rang the towing company to see if i could take some off my belongings wetsuit clothes shoes etc they told ne i cant take anything other than personal documents unless i pay the $550.00 for towing it 2 klm to the yard were it is and if i leave it any longer storage fees will apply

What a start to the year

Trying to remain positive

Regards

Jason

Hi Jason,

Things both good and bad, well you will deal with it, I'm sure of that.

The ute and belongings are a nuisance, but the treatment of your friends is a blessing, as is the fact that you might be sore but are still in one piece after the accident. And no kids in the way when it happened.

I was most impressed with something you said earlier:

I just need to leave emotion out off it be clear,assertive and none aggressive and im sure common sense will eventually prevail

You are so right. You will get it sorted - maybe not as quickly as you'd like, but you will.

Frankly I'd dearly like to have a guide on the other side, sometimes one feels alone and exposed and it would be comfort to the soul to have someone like your Opa, not to give instructions, just to be present.

Anyway that's just me I guess.

You take care

Croix

Jase, i'm not to sure about the tow company saying that. Is your car a right off? Was your car insured? Have you got the contact details of the (i think you said) police woman who assisted you after the accident.

It may be right but i would check on that.

Mark.

Hi there everyone

Im just about to nod off a when i thought i would check in on the forum you no i keep saying it cause i really think you all need to hear it thankyou all so much you have all made me feel a sence of worth in our community its really humbling and your very correct in assuming my friends are good people they are the best there is!!! and the lady who has given me a place i can relax the more i get to no her she is super intelligent a very wise soul its like she has some qualification in reading my thoughts and knows exactly when its time to become constructive i actually really enjoy working with her around the property we have fun and a laugh she is switch on and not affaid to get her hands dirty i feel extremely greatfull and she alone with her daughter have more than just my full respect i have there backs as you say it and the i hope i never witness anyone in any way ever disrespecting or upsetting either one off them.

i just finnished watching this documentary called kamatica i have watch it quite afew times and it makes so much sence to me and what we need to do to change what we have become and that is look within ourselves face our own demons instead off projecting them onto others bad people will constantly try to bring good people down because we remind them off how bad they are they install fear into us to make themselves feel powerfull as we need them to protect us because without there fear campaigns terrorism for example they would hold no power and have to start looking within them selves and i dont believe they would like what they see so putting others down takes less courage i liked how the sharmems used to think before america killed 95% off its population to gain control all indigenous tribes from around the world had the right idea they did everything in life with a conscious mind it was spiritual minded they were conected to the earth and new importance off maintaining it we do i believe have a chance off getting back to that way off conscious living or restoring what damage we have done in such a short time but we all need to have a free mind and not be scared to say enough is enough to the leaders of the destructive world we live in to day or as a species we are not to far away from extintion ourselves greed war fear tactics they dont scare me anyone who does any good gets outcasted or executed but if we unite there are so many more off us than the few who hold 60% off the wealth on this earth.

Good night

Jas

Hi Mark

I just got to put can r crash behind me .no my car was not insured as for some reason fraud charges appeared on my charge papers years ago they said it was a typing area but continued to appear i told them many times im not going to court for fraud eventually they took it off but ever since i cant get insurance for what ever reasons my family is evil but today as i promised them i contacted city sterling because they never told my omi the truth about me and did not contact me to give me my Opas war medals or tell me the exact date he passed away i the warrior have given them the opportunity to correct what they said and to tell my grandmother Omi there motive its only the start but buy the end they will all be turning on one another and this oxygen waisting worrior was to strong for them to defame me into giving up i pulled one card today and probably got another 2 dozen or more they can deal with some off which is going to be exactly what they need and that is there projection off me is who they really are its going to hurt i no i can look in the mirror i have not hurt anyone physically but we are all bound buy law and im glad i uncovered there filth and deception i the warrior can sit back and say with a bue respect you made your bed now your sleeping in it i hope my Omi does not pass away before i get to tell her i forgive her and love her its ok no need to talk about all that negative rubbish you have been brain washed with and i can get to spend some time with quality time with her

Morning Jason (hug)

How are you today mate? Hope you don't mind an observation - you seem to be racing a bit in your thoughts. I know what that's like, I get it sometimes because of bipolar. It can get faster and faster until my thoughts are all one big tangle and I can't separate them.

Sorry if I've got it wrong mate - maybe I'm just seeing my own experiences in you. But if you are having trouble, here's some things I do to help slow down:

Close your eyes and breathe slowly and deeply, and concentrate on the breath going in and out. Do it steadily for as long as you need to feel calmer and slower. (This lessens anxiety and helps you let go of stress in your body.)

Pick up an object and study it. Really look at it, take in every detail. Ask yourself questions about it - what would it look like if it was a different colour, different shape etc, if it's food image the taste, think about where it came from etc. Be curious about it. (This takes your thoughts away from what's racing in your mind).

Write a focus list - things to do or think about today. If your thoughts get too busy, look at the list and try to regain focus.

I hope that's helpful Jason. I know you have a lot going on mate, and the family situation is a constant problem for you. But sometimes, maybe today, maybe another day, we all need a break from what's preoccupying us, to give our minds a rest.

Very best wishes to you mate, I hope your day is a good one.

Talk later

Kaz

Good morning Kazzl

Im always open to peoples thoughts and advise and after going back on my last post yeh you are so right

It is consuming just about all off my thoughts unless im physically doing something else outside i find it hard to watch a movie without my mind wondering off thinking what my family has done

I am conscious of this and it has popped into my mind this could make me ill , but there is a time factor involved and thst is my Omi is over 90 years old and i dont want to even contemplate how i will feel knowing that she has died also believing that im no good because she also like my Opa will see the web off lies that have been fabricated by my family aspecially my cousin and that side i have this belief that if i was to come into contact with him i could crush him im so overwhelmed with this desire to see him suffer i have never felt like this towards anyone ever .

And im hoping that if i can at least somehow no that my grand mother knows that im not as bad a person as she has been brainwashed into believing, then that feeling towards my cousin my not be as resentful , i still look forward to hearing he is doing it hard and that its all because off me and my findings.

But yes your right i just no time is precious and Omi may not have that long hear left

Thanks for considering me and my state of mind maybe you can understand now reason behind why its so hard for me to pay full attention to other projects and i have not been for a surf for over a week which is really the only time i can truly say i feel at piece and at one with the universe

My ankle is taking way longer than i expected everything else is fine i will take out my stitches later today theres only 7 to remove my neck seams to be fine just a little stiff but not enough to keep me from going for a wave, hurry up ankle plus im walking distance from beach ,so not having a car its no big deal ,it including the stereo cost me$18.500 5 years ago thats life its only material possession in time i can always buy another car

Take care Kazzl

Jase, you are spot on - there are good people and there are bad people on this planet. The good people far outweigh the bad people though. Everyone has a choice as to what they want to be and they are interchangeable. The choices we make determine the future we have. We can all see that you are choosing to be a good citizen, not that you were not before hand of course and what this means is that you are turning your extreme negative situation into a positive - outstanding.

Great pick up by Kazzl noticing that you were racing a bit and i like how you are able to notice that when reading over the post. Take note of what she has said to help you settle. Great advice and I know you will take notice.

There is plenty to like about your posts of late mate - keep it going and remember if you have a bad day or your mind races, it is not a relapse, it is just a bad day. Get through it and start again the next day.

Cheers

Mark

Morning Jason, and hi Mark

How are you today Jase? I agree with everything Mark said, and I especially like the thought that a bad day is just a bad day, not a relapse (I'm going to borrow that one).

Yeah, I know those racing thoughts so well. Actually, a good friend of mine here MallowPuff described it has like having a hamster running on a wheel in your head. So a few of us on the bipolar thread now call those racing thoughts our head hamsters. Somehow that helps lessen their impact (and at least makes me smile).

I'm wondering Jason if you have thought of writing a letter to your Omi calmly explaining your side of the story. That won't be proof, but at least she will have your version to consider, and it might remove the urgency for you to state your case given her age. And it might prompt a response. Just a thought mate, only you know whether it's a viable option.

Sorry you're still hurting - do go back to the doc if you feel things aren't healing as they should be.

One good thing mate - there's plenty of summer left, so those waves will be waiting for you as soon as you're able.

Cheers

Kaz

"Head hampsters"...love it - great saying Kazzl.

Will be using that one!!

Hope you are well Jase.

Like the idea of a carefully worded letter. If you do decide to do this, make sure you don't let to much emotion come into it. You need to explain a story and if you do this on emotion and not clear thinking, the message will get muddled.

Mark.